Legal and Bloated

Final 18 [est. 12.20.90] yeah i'm grown i dont care what people say i'm grown.
Right now feelin[BLOATED] about to burst
Before I became the woman I am I was grown but yet to you i was still a lil girl
I look at the world with an adults eye though just a few days ago I only saw it with a a young girls eyes.
Dreaming big but yet held back by the struggles that cause stress only to make things in life worst
[BLOATED] did I say I wanted to be a pirate? Oh yeah I wanna be a pirate
Legal girl woot woot




Some people I would not replace in my life because I dont know what I would do without them.
My backbones, my shoulders and ears.


Right now im LEGAL&BLOATED.


code red code red code red .



im running but yet mah feet is sinking in the ground like I'm running in quicksand.

Gettin Hair done @ 8:50 ish in da morning.

We in the college office and im gettin mah hair done for senior pics
OMG yo getting the flat iron aint workin like its suppose to
But oh well as long as the hair look good for the pi im all good
Hair done by the one and only Brownin'
Veronica hair looks nice. like wow omg

Stressin

Yes Im a senior and yeah Im in the college office everyday but college apps is mad work
omg... yo i got mad nuff work to do
danm colleges but anyways college awaits me
I have an interview tomorrow at MSMC campous omg
I dont know if i'll sleep right judt thinkin about it
imma be mad nervous though i noe imma do gud
I did gud on the first one and now i got a second one like yeah baby
aaooooow
Teddy take mah stress away. =]

ENTITLED

some say i should be a writer
it seems like i always have so much to say with so little time to say it all
some say write a book about your life
its gonna help somebody later thats goin through the shyt youve been through
Idk
yo
I feel like if i start my story I will never finish because ive been through so much
THE story will never end
no ending
leave you to guess what happen next
soo... yeah i had a crappy day today
it didnt start out like one but ended in one
arrrrgggg
I got gas FART [relief aaaahhhhh]
oh well idc aint nobody near me
ewwwwww it stinks
I eat too much junk
wonder where the food go?
Breast? Feet?[no they little]
idk but oh well
FOOD IS MY BESTFRIEND.
Theres this little boy thats my nephew
I love him so much
right now he lookin at the computer like he can understand what im writing
[lean over and kiss his forhead..... he smile his cutie pie smile] makes me feel better
ahhhhhhhh Hes a kewl kid IL him [Joshua] dats his name

Elaboration

My mind expands as I absorb the crap you keep feeding me
Why do I listen? Idk
It feels like my head is gonna explode just listening to your bullshit
I'm not running away because
How can I when I got you tied to my feet?
Feels like the Titanic
going down in a big ocean of ice
Feeling the numbness in my legs and it slowly creeps to my heart
Elaboration
I'M LOOSING MAH EFFING MIND.
AAAARRRG
I wish I was a pirate
but anyways I need to get back to da real world and flush of your IGNORANT words out my mind
They seem to be taking over me these days
ELABORATION
NOT GONNA LOOSE MAH EFFING MIND
I cant get gray hairs while your beauty lingers behind you
For I am as beautiful as MOrning Glories, the moon, the stars
When I look in the mirror I AM THE DEFINITION OF BEAUTY
IM GOOD NOW
WHeeewwww
it does feel gud when i write
=]

arrrrrrrrrrggg

aaaaaarrrrrgggg I'm loosing my mind. =[

Senioritis sinkin in

I have to do some creative writing for my english class. I have an idea of where to start but havent been able to actually sit down for real and start writing. Senioritis sinking in on me. Imma snap out of it though cuz im counting days till June 25 yo.. woooohooooo. anyways today was a bad day i had mad tests and shyt arrrrrggg. I had a music,spanish,P.I.G,math and psychology midterm. The last two i mostly def didnt get good grades on them. Yo i miss Teddy. Its like we can never spend enough time together, the time just fly out the window yo. Im so addicted to him hes mah personal dose of Heroin. HEs a good addiction though.=]. I got so many things going through my mind i cant type fast enough to let all of them out. arrrggg. imma be out yo i gotta go clean...

The voice within

Stop ... NO keep goin... Stop...
Internal battle that never stop
The voice within screamin out for help but no one can hear
What can I do when no one seem to hear me anymore
I struggle with the internal struggle
I look around for someone to run to for help
But my feet get heavy and the ground seem to pull me in within its depths
Should I keep going? or stop?
It feels as if im not going to get anywhere
Crying inside out sinking into a corner of loneliness
As the earth pull me deeper into its depths
I looked up and saw your face and then i turn to you
Then my body shook
for it was just a dream
I woke up to a dark room feelin my sweat evaporate into the air
It was just a dream
Are dreams Illusions?

Flawed character ( a lil too much flaw)

Nobody is perfect I know but how annoying can a person be?
Everyday is something new its like you never wanna stfu
I like flawed characters because in them i see more truth_ Nicholas Cage
But damn you got a little bit too much flaws
haven't you ever dream of changing your ways so you can coexist with people
Maybe not argue for a day or two because it will make us closer to having peace
It seems you don't wanna become a better person
It seems you turn the attention on other people when you talk trash about them so other people wont notice your flaws
Instead people seem to notice your and trashy big mouth
In you there is some truth but its not a lot
Your life is like a drama movie that seem to never end.
I'm not perfect duh everybody got flaws but damn you just overboard
I cant seem to coexist with you
Yo I cant be getting gray hairs because of you
I like flawed characters because in them I see more truth_ Nicholas Cage.


Maybe you'll change someday but as of now I see no chance of it being anytime soon for you wrap up in your world of deceit and corruption.

Thankful

Happy Thanksgiving. I am thankful for everybody in my life. Thankful for everything. =] Happy
☆CUPCAKE♥™ wishes everybody a Happy Thanksgiving.

Naggin.

Walks through the door i hear the voice i now start to despise
precaution... how naggin can you be?
I rise pass yur bullshyt but yet yuh keep tryin to put me under yur feet
Decent.. no conversation can be
i try to show you im not like you
yet you try to personify me into something im not
Naggin.. dont spell it backwards cuz im not tryna call yuh a nigga
but naggin can yuh be?
It seems as if yuh spend yur days
thinkin of ways
to attack me
naggin...

Have you ever?

Have you ever met someone you couldnt get enough of? whose touch sent shivers down your spine? whose kisses made your knees go weak? When ever that person look at you all you could do is smile. As if to glow when you're around that person. Some people you regret meeting but that person you wish you have met them sooner. Have you ever look at that in the eye and smile so hard your cheeks hurt? if you think its impossible then think again for there is someone out there for everyone.






this Lil Cupcake is out. =] estoy contenta.

umm cake

winin pon dee cocky he did.
his name start wit a da... nin
Brownin dats juss for yuh
nikkas too funni.. i love mah hoes

No More White Mans burden

To the white man black were their burden
November 4, 2008 History was made
Barack Obama became the 1st black president
this time you wonder
Is the white man a black mans burden?
No the white man is not the black mans burden
That historic day tears flowed down people eyes
Like a stream running its course
Martin Luther King Jr. must have been doing flips in his grave
For Obama the 1st black man to be the president made his dream come true
For he had a dream that one day blacks&whites would unite
The night of November 4, 2008 people stayed up just to know
That a man of color can make it so far and yet had a chance to win
A dream realized
A prophecy accomplished
A day some people never dreamt they would ever see
No More white mans burden
Behind every great leader there is a woman
Obama has Michelle as his backbone, bestfriend, his everything.
American have been waiting for change for so long
People were beginning to whither away
Obama brought that hope and change
We flourished like flowers in the spring
for we are no longer the white mans burden
Barack Obama the 1st black and 44th president of THE UNITED STATES.
GOD BLESS AMERICA.

Blank Expression

Everyday faces walk pass me
Blank expression on my face
Don't want to reveal the real thoughts behind the curtains I have up
You only see what I want you to see... It's an illusion
I had this blank expression for I didnt want you to see who I was
I gave you a sneak peek
Now you got a taste I've become your favorite
I no longer have this blank expression
but this look of adoration...
Le Plus beau homme.

Correlation

statistical measure of the strength and weakness between two variable.

Heavy on the mind

Thoughts race through your mind
mwen jus pa konnen sa pou mwen panse anko
POu kisa pou di yon moun ou renmen'l epi se pa vre
Lannwit li kriye paske li panse li tap ave'w yon jou anko
tout ti parol dous ou te konn ap do yo
se te jus yon faz nan vi ou
OU te pote ke'l nan pla men ou
konnye a ou pike epi li kriye paske ou te ap di'l bel ti parol
Bagay sa yo lou nan tet mwen
Mwen pa ka ba'w konsey sou parol de lanmou
sel sa mwen ka di'w se pa renmen ak yon moun vit
Pran tan paske gen de le moun konn tronpe'w

R.I.P David Diaz aka D-Block [101308]

Life is precious. He was only 19 when he died. David may your soul rest in peace. Sad how one moment can change a million after. He will never be forgotten.

[101308] D-Block

idk

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Poodak.............................
Brownin...................
Cupcake....................

idk just a little sumthing

Love is not a battle to be won but a natural thing that must occur. A woman is not a trophy given after a game is won, but something precious that must cherish.

Dreamer

Shiny eyes looking at the moon and dreaming
Thinking of what coulda been
Instead of sittin on your ass dreaming make it a reality
Dont be afraid to dream
Never let your dreams be deffered

POrtrait of ....

A brother walk with his head high in the street
when he's home he sinks into a corner of misery
Women see him as a portrait of a happiness
He smiles as he walks past a woman sitting with her baby
Knowing he cries inside
Not wanting to show his weakness and vulnerability
He knows deep inside he longs to love somebody and to complete the portrait
A portrait of wholeness
In the street he shows his masculinity
As soon he enters the doors of his house emotions overcome him
His walls seem to enclose on him
What a portrait
He smiles in it but its so fake Inside he really want to break down and cry
Portrait of ...

Anchor

I'm not a ship but yet I seem to have an anchor pulling me down
Each day I seem to sink deeper in the pit of Idk what to call it
I look at the empty faces passing by with a frown
I'm not a puzzle piece but yet you want me to fit
Into your puzzle of the portrait of a family, happiness, what's good
Anchor on my leg pulling me into the deep sea
and I'm not even a ship

SAd memory

Today I saw a picture of my mothers' coffin. My dad was holding me and I had on a moss green dress. That picture brought back some sad memories. It reminded me of how little time I had with my mother. I wanted to cry but I just brush it off. I saw the look on my sisters' face and try to smile so she wouldnt break down and cry too. I saw the look on my fathers' face in the picture holding me. Danm how I miss them. Sometimes I wonder why me but I know I have to do the best I can to make them proud. I hold my head high. Just looking at that picture bring back the sad day of December 9, 1995. If only I could hear my mothers voice one more time. Her face seem to fade from my memory as days go by. Its been 13 years since she died. Man I miss her.

Juss bored out mah mind

I dont noe wat to do anymore juss bored out mah d=fuxckin mind

The Three Doctors

There are these three doctors that were raised in the ghetto and they came out doctors.

Are you????

Are you a freak???
does your looks tell ppl in the street wat you do behind close doors??/
you a freak

Very thoughtful

Just sitting here and thinking about so mant rthings
College awaits me and so does the things that need changes
Trains of thoughts are running through my mind in different directions
very thoughtful in the guidance office right now
I'm scared about college but yet cant wait.

Smoked

hard to forget the taste it left in my mouth
The taste of ash
smoked
I cant believe
Me& Mah sister from another mother smoked

Lonely Poet

He's such a fool to write poems for her but never say with his mouth how much he love her
She longs to hear him say it but the wait is ever lasting
Now he's a lonely poet who longs for her touch
he wishes she was here to hold him tight
whisper sweet words in his ears but now their just a dream because now she no longer sleep next to him
Her warmth is all thats left behind
Lonely poet
just oh so lonely

Taking flight

I dont have wings but yet I'm taking flight
to where you might ask and I dont know
Wherever my destiny takes me
Taking flight isnt easy when you have no wings
Its not no fake wings which can melt from the heat of the sun
But wings that are light which can make my flight easy
I took flight though you still held on
I got you on my tail and you still wont let go
Take flight yourself because you're dragging me down into a pit of lies
I can no longer the live you expect to live
I must make my own path
Never will I let my dreams deffer like yours
they withered away like a flower in the snow
Taking flight aint easy

Rules... she spoke of love

Laying in bed and she starts telling how she love the fact that he's has eyes only for her at the moment. She wanted some but the thought of all the hurt he put her through turned her off. Love have limits (boundaries) that arent meant to be crossed or so she say. Why she say there are rules for love??? what the hell are they ??? I mean there are things you just dont do to someone you love but what the basic rules she spoke of??? Loving him for her isnt hard but the heartbreak is horrifying. He doesnt know how much he kills her inside but yet her love for him is never ending or maybe thats just how she feel right now. She's no stranger to me its like I know her inside out but not really. She's a puzzle with pieces that are broken. Though never repaired she would always go on loving him. Rules she spoke of while laying down tangled amongs legs, eyes, hearts, arms, ears. She does the same for me, hear me out when I cry and I do the same for her. Rules... she spoke of love....

Nympho... she finally got a man matter fact she stole him

This chick knew the two were together but yet she had to have him
She gets around like Tupac said
Everybody knows she gets around
nympho she is
she just cant live without sex
danm bitch she is
she hates on his ex girl and admits to herself the other is beautiful
Army girl just stole herself a man
Now what she got is the rest because he is a done deal
dead beat, birdchess mutherfucka
nobody else around wanted her so she played with his mind and got him in her trap of what she call love
He's her company now for before she was lonely
If she didnt steal him she woulda got a thousand cats to keep her company
Must you degrade yourself to such a value that you cant find a man that you gotta steal someone elses'
You both got the same last name how you know you aint related
that would be a danm shame if ya have kids together and the kid come out looking like shit
I dont mean to disrespect but I couldnt take look at the shit you were doing
you got people looking at you sideways but did you ever think about any of the things that were doing???
She just cant live without sex
she gets around to get her tender satisfaction or maybe she likes it rough idk
danm hoe people know her name
wouldnt you be ashame to walk among those who know who you fuck and how many people???
I know I would
I guess people arent the same as others
their morals are different
Danm trick give the other women a bad name
Those who hang with her I feel pity
Just like the saying say "Tell me who your friends are I would tell you who you are."
Nympho.... finally got herself a man naw matter of fact she captured his heart into a world of darkness, deceitness, lies, sins, condamnation and straight up hell yo
Nympho stole her a man but I doubt its gonna last like she think it is...
I can barely look her in the face because I know her deeds and their not good

she got mad love for him

He breaks her heart but yet she still loves him
He makes her cry then after all the fighting he wipe her tears away
He realize hes a fool but yet does the same stupid things over and over
She got mad love for him
She forgives him for every litle thing he do but never forgets them
They're somewhere in the back of her mind
Resurfacing from time to time
He made her world dark but brighten it when everything for him is all right
She got mad love for him
She inspires me to write about this
She's a good woman
She's a shoulder in which I could cry on
She's undescribeable
She's phenomenal
And she got mad love for him

our hell

Our hell is here on earth for the things we put each other through is unbelievable and to us not consider awful. We are each others torturer for do all the things possible that we can think of to hurt each other. Imagine you were in a room burning eternally meaning never ending. Jean-Paul Sartre opens a new door of thinking to how he thinks hell is. Our hell is here on earth. Crying, Sick, Diseases, and many other things get people tired of how life is. The percentage of suicide rates go up each year. OUr hell is here but when we die another hell awaits you it have fire burning for eternity.

This is our hell

When we hear the word hell

I personally think of fire burning eternally

Earth is our hell don't you think

A. Phillip Randolph CHS

FOurth year there, I don't plan on spending extra time there for I despise that place
At first it was a place in which I could escape
It created another world for me as things get too crowded in my mind
Though never spoke aboout them
When I'm there they roam in the empty halls when no one crowded the halls
Don't try to inflict your views on other people
Every person that inhabit the earth got a mind of their own
Things never seem to change but now at A.P.R they do
seriously what has gotten in to people lately
Now A.P.R no longer create another world where ones mind could wonder
Can't roam the halls like before
The lockers are preowned
The staff brand new like underwear
Telling you this and that seriously I've been there long before you were here
who are you to tell me what to do???
Crowding the spaces where my thoughts used to roam freely but now are restricted
A.P.R a place to learn can't wait to get up out of it. June 25, 2009 Graduation day

Just can' t get the hang of things

Walking around with a big ole smile on my face
At the corner of my eye I see an old man with an undone lace
I walk pass him
Oh man I see a man sittin on the stoop lookin thin
I keep on my journey to nowhere
Just watching people as I walk there
A spanish lady selling fruits but i notice the sliced mangos
Right by the light post stand a two hoes
why must I call then that you ask??
They have hooker boots, mini skirts and half shirts basically they barely have clothes on
Pro vs. Con
who win?? I wonder
they learn from each other
Fate vs Free will
he asked me who will win???
I said neither because they both determine how the other willo turn out to be
Just can't get the hang of things
I sit on the bench at the park watching as life pass me by
I soon get a sense of things and get up and let somebody else watch as I go by
I soon will get the hang of things



College awaits me... Don't doubt me because I will roll over you like a speedbump

FRIENDS THEY'RE PRECIOUS

I GOT FRIENDS THat ARE IRREPLACEABLE
THEY'RE HARD TO FIND
NEVER WILL YOU FIND THEM LIKE MINE
I'M NOT GONN NAME THEM ALL JUST SOME
JOHNNYCAKE, POODAKOLA,MOFO,BROWNIN,TEE,JAii3( JAIME DATS YOU), JUSTINE AND MANY OTHERS
I TELL YOU NEVER WILL YOU FIND FRIENDS LIKE MINE
FRIENDS ARE PRECIOUS AND HARD TO FIND THEM LIKE MINE
THEY'RE LIKE A PRESENT WITH A BOW
TELL 'EM YOUR SECRETS, ABOUT THE CUTIE ON DA BUS, YOUR BOO, WHAT CLASS YOU FAIL
THERE ARE THINGS THEY AUTOMATICALLY KNOW
THEY KNOW WHEN YOU'RE DOWN BY THE LOOK ON YOUR FACE
THEY KNOW WHY YOU BE CHEESING AND STUFF
THEY NOTICE THINGS THAT WEIRD
THEIR WEIRD AND KEWL
AND FOR THE PEOPLE THAT ARE TOLD THAT THEY ARE CRAZY
IF YOU GOT FRIENDS LIKE MINE YOU DON'T NEED NO DARN PSCYCHIATRIST
YOUR FRIENDS ARE THE EARS THAT LISTEN TO YOUR EVERYTHING
ILY MY CRAZY FRIENDS

You never miss something until it's gone

I started writing something but then the laptop started fuckin up
what I wrote before this got erased
danm laptop
gets on my nerves
I wanna break it but I ain't paying for that shyt
Oh yeah the letter k dont work
I gott PRESS that darn thing a thousand times before I can get a k
The computer is in the shop so imma wait for it cuz this darn thing is annoying

God help me forgive

Been through so much
I've climb so many mountains to get where I am today
Yet you still doubt that I will make it any further
God help me forgive
Remembering things that were good
Trying to put all the bad in the back of my mind
They resurface back into my life
You ruined my life as far i'm concerned
I know hate is a strong word but did you think about that when you put me through hell???
I don't think so... cold i grew to be because of you
I do the best I can and don't you dare judge me
Lord knows... only he can judge me
God help me forgive
I don't wanna forgive her but i think its best I do
Help me forgive
you forgive me of my sins and I should be able to forgive too
But its hard to forgive someone who put you through hell
My hell was here on earth
There was no eternal fire but "she" was the maggots eating away my flesh
SHe killed me but she doesnt realize it
Lord help me forgive her
At times i wanna cry because I know what I've been through
But i hold on to the times when things were good
Nobody knows the trouble i've seen but GOd
I'll wont remember everything but I'll never forget
God help me

Why is it this way???

I got the pants on and so do you but you dont act your part
I'm not the man but yet i do your job better than you
wake up and smell the coffee
why is it this way???
what's your definiton of being a man???
Is being a man mean that you can work it in the bedroom??
Got a good size???
Make money???
Hey yo women make more money than some men
why is it this way???
I wanna see you be a real man
its ok to cry when you can't take it anymore
talk to you lover about how you feel
talk to her like she's one of your guy friends
dont hold back whats really eating you inside
whats your definition of a man???
baby you dont always gotta be strong because you think i'm weak
I'm not weak I just let you do things to make you feel like a man
to massage your manly ego
why is it this way???
Set your ego aside and just be a real man
I wonder why its this way????
Danm yo what happened to the few good men left???
where are they hiding???

Sweet thing

yo can you believe that he's sweeter than sugar

Make you just wanna smile till your face get numb

Sweet thing that's a nice sun set
nice colors =]

Carayzee fool

Call a brother carayzee but he just cant stop
Thinkin he hot like hot fudge
But hey you not hot
Just don't know when to stop
Can't you get the danm clues
back the fck up
YOU just CARAYZEE fool
DAng y you gotta be like dat for

Tryna be nice here but you makin hard cuz yuh get on mah danm nerves
shyt man

Sex on the roof

Raining
Body all soaking wet
Bump&grind on the roof
THunder roll
Our body temps are rising
Hot sex On the Roof

Is there a way out???

I wonder at times is there a way out of love?? What is life without love, hate, pain and all the other things that makes the world go round. There are times when the world seems as if it might topple over but its held by a tiny string. Is there a way where you can make yourself disappear to a place where you're content. Is there a way out getting hurt??? I'm saying that you have to hide yourself in a shell like a turtle. What's life without taking risks?? Is there a way where maybe just maybe you wouldn't shed a tear. Is there a way out of not loosing the one you truly love to spend never ending time with them. For when that someone smile butterflies rise out the corner of their mouth, their eyes sparkle like stars, their cheeks rise like little hills, the nose wrinkle like a rabbits' nose. I wonder is there a way out???? I scream at the sky because I wanna know is there a way out. All I see is the sun shining brighter than ever and still no answer.

Never ending tears

I wonder if you were here how things would be different
The day that the you were taken from me it felt like my world crumbled down
The tears would come to my eyes knowing that you are no longer here
Your hands carried me to sleep, wipe the tears from my eyes
But now I have never ending tears because you no longer here with me
It felt like someone was saying to me how they used a knife because it was slow they didn't want to use a gun because it was too quick they wanted to see you suffer, beg for your life, confess your sins, see your life flashing before you
Then a tear slowly rolled down your cheek knowing that you won't be here to see me grow
Never ending tears that flow from my eyes while my heart tears apart
Knowing that you no longer here to see your little girl grow
Never Ending are my tears because you no longer reside on earth but in the clouds up high watching me . I wish you were here to hold me because I'm not too old for that.

Dear Somebody who cares,

You promised to do the best you can to get us out the shit hole, but it seems as if we're getting deeper. You had people rooting for you, waking up early to make sure that things for you were actually right. You the president were supposed to take care of the your country. Must we forget that we were the first black nation to set ourselves free but 200 years later we are still slaves not of foreigners but ourselves. We devalued ourselves that other nations look down at us, its supposed to be that other nations look up at us and see progress. Each pass by and things for our people get worse. Haitians where are you??? Why aren't your voices heard??? Maybe you should speak up so your voices could be heard. The people suffer, tears and sweat mix together just to feed a child. Children are the company of misery, that's the theory of the people that live in the country. Toussaint L'ouverture, Jean Jack Dessaline, Capois Lamor, and the other heroes that fought for Haiti's hard earned independence. We are supposed to carry the legend of the heroes that gave us the opprtunity to say we are a free country. How can we say that when we are still slaves. Kidnapping and the killings, doesn't anybody care anymore??? Haitians we must stand up and show that those 200 years of independence are something. Carry your country's flag with pride and show the world that you are ready for change. A change that is good and that will carry the children of the future generation to another level. Bring the literacy rate up, read it opens a door that nobody got a key to but you. Somebody that cares out there let your voice be heard. Show that you care. Haitians stand up and let your voice be heard.
Concerned Hatian girl

Class of 09

I'm class of 09.
I'm a senior
Just oh so happy
Can't wait to get up out the danm skewl
Can you believe that the years go by so fast
I can't like danm yo
THough I wanna get out of high skewl imma miss the life and stuff
Class of 09 we run this
I'm a senior
To all the people that doubted me, imma see where you stand now when I graduate
You know you push me to get this far just because you never thought I could make it
Well now you see, I've risen above your doubts
I've climb the highest mountains to get this far and I won't let you get to me
I'm class of 09 and I'm proud of myself for getting this far and I would never give up on me
CLASS OF 09 I represent with pride
If you in my way to achieve this goal I'll just simply push you aside
And show you that I'm capable of doing anything I put my mind to

Pretty Brown eyes

SweetHeart you have some pretty brown eyes
Can I touch them or maybe just get a closer look?
Mister no you can't touch them but you can look at 'em
Thank you young one with the pretty brown eyes
Where you from little one with the pretty brown eyes??
I'm from no where and everywhere mister
Mister with the pretty hazel eyes
Can I touch them or maybe just get a closer look?
Little girl no you can't touch them but you can look at 'em
Thank you mister with the pretty hazel eyes
Where you from mister with the pretty hazel eyes????
I'm from no where and everywhere little one.
It was nice meeting you mister with the pretty hazel eyes.
Sweetheart you have some pretty brown eyes

I had a hero

I had a Hero

I had a hero he was not tall or had superpowers
He made everyday better with the words that he say
He wipe the tears from my eyes
Carried me to bed every night
Daddy’s little girl he was my hero
This world creates injustice
They take away something from me
Not knowing that they tear my heart apart
Momma gone and now so is he
Can’t remember his voice
He was my hero
Dad, Mom, my two sisters and my brother
Are the reason that I smile
If I sleep through the night
Tomorrow will be a brighter day
My Hero and my Angel watch over me
Though sometimes I wish I could hear their voice
Or touch them
I wish I had held tight
And never let go
Change my world and you’ll never know
You showed me love that nobody woulda showed
Dad you are my Hero
Never will you be forgotten
Love always,little girl that miss you

I had an angel

I Had an Angel

Beautiful lady was an angel of mine though she
Shined like the sun on everyone around
Can never be compared to nothing
She was my shining star
She wasn’t perfect but she was the best thing ever
She didn’t last forever
Vanished like smoke
Cant remember her voice
Her face getting a little blurry
Very little pictures to remind me of the memories
Changed my world
My inspiration
She was my angel on earth
Had little time with her
Time, if only I could go back
I would hold her tight and never let go
I had an angel but she no longer stand by my side
She watches me from above
I smile knowing she watching me
Though at times I wish she was here
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Momma she was my angel
Now I shed happy tears knowing I had an angel
Like her in my life
Momma you will always be remembered
Love always, The little girl wishes you were here

Gen de time

si chak matin ou leve epi moun ou renmen an pa bo kote'w dlo t'ap kouri sot nan je'w tankou dlo k'ap ponpe nan yon sous. Ou rete bo telefon nan ap tann le pou li rele'w. Ou ta chita sou galeri sou yon ti chez men li p'ap janm paret. Gen de time ou santi ou ta rete le pou ou ka pase tan ave'l. Le'l kenbe'w nan bra li ou santi ou pa ta janm lage. Ou ta rete time pou'w ka rete nan ponyet li. Mwen santi'm menm jan le ti boubout mwen pa rele'm. Gen de time moun ka di ou in love paske yo we jan ou gade nan espas avek je'w tankou je chen. Feeling sa se pa tout moun ki konprann. se komsi ke'w nan yon ti cloud epi l'ap flote. Gen de time baby I just cant see myself without you. The beginning is not meant to be understood but the end is a happy ending. Life aint no fairytale but i hope mine have a happy ending. Gen de time baby gen de time.
Je T'aime pou toujour

I gave you wings to fly

Maybe the things he said I heard wrong. HE promised never to break my heart but yet he did. A promise is a comfort to a fool but I'm not a fool. I've matured through my years of listening to your issues. I was the shoulder you cried on. Maybe I heard wrong. He said our love would blossom like a flower in the spring, but it withered away like snow fell and froze it up. I heard wrong or maybe the wall around my heart believed sugar coated lies that broke it apart. I know for sure I held on to the sweet lies he said because I let my guard down and got pushed to the ground. What happens to dream deferred? He was the one I thought I was looking for but I guessI was wrong for letting my heart or maybe it was my head telling that he wouldn't do such a thing. I gave you wings to fly but you kicked me to the ground. I used to be there when no one else was but maybe it was I that needed your company. I guess I like who I was when I was with you but not what you are. Amor is an illusion that I have in my heart. What did I do wrong? Was it the fact that I gave you wings to fly?

Extra baggage on my back

Walking down the street and the weight on my shoulder shift to my back. It gets heavier and heavier each step I take. Now you're just extra baggage on my back. I carried you and your bullshit for so long now its time I let you go. You're suppose to be a man and hold this shit together but all you do is tear it apart. First her heart, now her soul. Extra baggage thats not even useful. I used to carry you on my head like a crown but yo you devalued yourself to nothing. It used to be an honor to have you but now you're like shit. You don't respect yourself because if you did others would have respected you. I used to trust my heart and my soul with you but now I guard it like never before. I should have thought about it before i made you my baggage but you're just extra and worthless. You put all at stake just for something thats replaceable. Extra baggage, worthless chump change.

Just maybe I'm not hoping for more

It used to be that we cared for each other. We used to show it but now the love we had for each other is no longer the same. I come from a culture where people don't show much affection but has the world gone that bad for us to turn our backs on the we "used" to care for. We used to stick together like glue and when we didnt see each other we would miss each other. Now its like this "how can I miss you if you won't go away." A brother just talk, a sister just talk but what about the other sisters that sits and wait for a brother and a sister to say a loving word or maybe just a hug. I don't a believe what you tell me you would do until I see it. Am I wrong for loosing faith in you? I think I'm not because you always had my hopes up and then you would cruch them down 6 feet under like the loved ones lost. Just maybe I'm not not hoping for more, I used to look up to you but now I look down at you. Now you're like one of the many things that I lost interest in. A brother to care and don't hide his thoughts from and don't criticize me. A sister to love, tell secrets with, laugh about the silly little things girls do, to tell about the boy that I love. I'm just hoping too much, just maybe maybe things will change

What Did You think?

When you first saw me you saw my blue nail polish and you thought about the sky. I saw you looking and I frowned and you winked at me. What did you think? I was just another chick you can have a fling with. My smell pulled you toward me like a magnet but i didnt go there for you. What did you think? when you saw me putting lip gloss on, all you thought about was kissing me. When I looked at you all I saw was another man just trying to get at me like I was your favorite food. When you looked at my feet you saw my pink nail polish and thought damn this girl got a hold on me. You examined me from head to toe and you liked what you saw. But what did you think? When you walked up and stood next to me. Did you think I was gonna maybe turn and introduce myself and smile and giggle at your corny jokes. You all up in my personal space and all I'm asking is for you to move over a little. What did you think? Really what did you think? I'm not an object you can place in catagories. I'm not clay so you can't shape me into your perfect toy. I'm phenomenal baby I don't change who I am because I'm not living to satisfy people. I live life for me and me only. At times when nobody else is there for me I'm always there. I would never betray myself. I'm phenomenal

Why I ask but you just keep walking out the door why?

Why would you deprive me of something so valuable? He's so dear to my heart but yet you seem to pull him away more and more each day. Why? Is it that he dogged you and you hurting so bad that you just don't know what to do. I asked you why but you just kept walking out the door never to turn back to see the tear drop from my eye. My tear hit the floor with a thud and I was waiting for you to turn and come wipe the tears that were coming fast but you took a deep breath and just kept walking. I love him its true and I would always love him no matter what. As you walk away the scene in the background of my life change. It becomes gloomy just because he's not here to call my name, pull my eye lashes when I'm sleeping and he's not. Why do you deprive me of something so valuable and dear to my heart.

Maquillage or love?

Maquillage or love? He wanted to know did I put on a front to get by with him. I don't call it that I call it my maquillage. His love is there but to me it WAS there. I'm tying to put him in the past but he keep resurfacing into my life. Was it love I had for him or was it a maquillage I put on. He try to put me on top of his world but he felt like chump change weighing me down into a pit of lies in which he called his love for me and what I call my maquillage. I wouldn't call it love because to me it was maquillage and it would always be. I'm letting you go because i don't want to hurt you and break you into a million pieces. I can't say i love you and I miss you because it's not true but I'm going to say Farewell to a relationship not worth remembering. If only you see the truth in my eyes but I'm afraid to look you in your eyes for fear you might see what troubles me and try to break the wall I have around my heart. The "thing" we had was not love but maquillage. I'm sorry I had to that to you but I have to move and spent the change in my pocket to satisfy myself because when you're not there I'm there for me.