F A D E D

As your eyes scan my body from head to toe...I shy away. The fire in my eye faded though you thought it would burn forever. I no longer want your touch... I was so accustomed to how you held me close to heart but you made me felt CHOKED. That's why I had to fly.. release myself from your tight grip.. I had the wind beneath my wings. Soon as I left.. I
F A D E D. Now when I look in the mirror I see the scars you left on my wings but I survived now I'm stronger.

Losing Control

Losing my mind to the questions unanswered. Where do I began? Who do I go to? &somehow I can't find myself to get up out this chair in this crouch position. I feel as though I'm being picked up by my collar...being controlled like a puppet. I'm slowly losing control of this image but I don't seem to know what the image stand for anymore...what does it show?.. I was the bright blur in a black&white picture but I've become the dull one in a colorful picture.. Where have I faded to?... I still don't recognize where I am. Now that I know I've lost control I don't know how to get myself back. I never fell off the edge though you pushed me I just vanished like the smoke at the end of that blunt. -____-

F I N A L L Y !

Found it in my chest to let go of the things you've done & said & the pain you caused. You killed me inside but yet I still live though you thought otherwise. Its a sickness how you corrupt our minds. The things I've done I won't apologize for, because after all everything happens for a reason. I've put to rest all the pain you caused cuz I was getting tired of carrying the dead weight that was on my shoulder. They say time heal all wounds... I don't think so it just makes things easier. I won't forget things but I will let go... finally finding the strength to let it go... It took me a LONG time but I did it. F I N A L L Y ! Now the dead weight is taken off my shoulder.

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Standing on the edge, below are those that have fallen off. I'm not going anywhere though, Imma stay here as long as my strength allows me to stay. I wont let go just because you tell me to. Push me I'm not falling, I have my feet planted in the ground. Its a new year & I will stand strong.