SAd memory

Today I saw a picture of my mothers' coffin. My dad was holding me and I had on a moss green dress. That picture brought back some sad memories. It reminded me of how little time I had with my mother. I wanted to cry but I just brush it off. I saw the look on my sisters' face and try to smile so she wouldnt break down and cry too. I saw the look on my fathers' face in the picture holding me. Danm how I miss them. Sometimes I wonder why me but I know I have to do the best I can to make them proud. I hold my head high. Just looking at that picture bring back the sad day of December 9, 1995. If only I could hear my mothers voice one more time. Her face seem to fade from my memory as days go by. Its been 13 years since she died. Man I miss her.

Juss bored out mah mind

I dont noe wat to do anymore juss bored out mah d=fuxckin mind

The Three Doctors

There are these three doctors that were raised in the ghetto and they came out doctors.

Are you????

Are you a freak???
does your looks tell ppl in the street wat you do behind close doors??/
you a freak

Very thoughtful

Just sitting here and thinking about so mant rthings
College awaits me and so does the things that need changes
Trains of thoughts are running through my mind in different directions
very thoughtful in the guidance office right now
I'm scared about college but yet cant wait.

Smoked

hard to forget the taste it left in my mouth
The taste of ash
smoked
I cant believe
Me& Mah sister from another mother smoked

Lonely Poet

He's such a fool to write poems for her but never say with his mouth how much he love her
She longs to hear him say it but the wait is ever lasting
Now he's a lonely poet who longs for her touch
he wishes she was here to hold him tight
whisper sweet words in his ears but now their just a dream because now she no longer sleep next to him
Her warmth is all thats left behind
Lonely poet
just oh so lonely

Taking flight

I dont have wings but yet I'm taking flight
to where you might ask and I dont know
Wherever my destiny takes me
Taking flight isnt easy when you have no wings
Its not no fake wings which can melt from the heat of the sun
But wings that are light which can make my flight easy
I took flight though you still held on
I got you on my tail and you still wont let go
Take flight yourself because you're dragging me down into a pit of lies
I can no longer the live you expect to live
I must make my own path
Never will I let my dreams deffer like yours
they withered away like a flower in the snow
Taking flight aint easy

Rules... she spoke of love

Laying in bed and she starts telling how she love the fact that he's has eyes only for her at the moment. She wanted some but the thought of all the hurt he put her through turned her off. Love have limits (boundaries) that arent meant to be crossed or so she say. Why she say there are rules for love??? what the hell are they ??? I mean there are things you just dont do to someone you love but what the basic rules she spoke of??? Loving him for her isnt hard but the heartbreak is horrifying. He doesnt know how much he kills her inside but yet her love for him is never ending or maybe thats just how she feel right now. She's no stranger to me its like I know her inside out but not really. She's a puzzle with pieces that are broken. Though never repaired she would always go on loving him. Rules she spoke of while laying down tangled amongs legs, eyes, hearts, arms, ears. She does the same for me, hear me out when I cry and I do the same for her. Rules... she spoke of love....

Nympho... she finally got a man matter fact she stole him

This chick knew the two were together but yet she had to have him
She gets around like Tupac said
Everybody knows she gets around
nympho she is
she just cant live without sex
danm bitch she is
she hates on his ex girl and admits to herself the other is beautiful
Army girl just stole herself a man
Now what she got is the rest because he is a done deal
dead beat, birdchess mutherfucka
nobody else around wanted her so she played with his mind and got him in her trap of what she call love
He's her company now for before she was lonely
If she didnt steal him she woulda got a thousand cats to keep her company
Must you degrade yourself to such a value that you cant find a man that you gotta steal someone elses'
You both got the same last name how you know you aint related
that would be a danm shame if ya have kids together and the kid come out looking like shit
I dont mean to disrespect but I couldnt take look at the shit you were doing
you got people looking at you sideways but did you ever think about any of the things that were doing???
She just cant live without sex
she gets around to get her tender satisfaction or maybe she likes it rough idk
danm hoe people know her name
wouldnt you be ashame to walk among those who know who you fuck and how many people???
I know I would
I guess people arent the same as others
their morals are different
Danm trick give the other women a bad name
Those who hang with her I feel pity
Just like the saying say "Tell me who your friends are I would tell you who you are."
Nympho.... finally got herself a man naw matter of fact she captured his heart into a world of darkness, deceitness, lies, sins, condamnation and straight up hell yo
Nympho stole her a man but I doubt its gonna last like she think it is...
I can barely look her in the face because I know her deeds and their not good

she got mad love for him

He breaks her heart but yet she still loves him
He makes her cry then after all the fighting he wipe her tears away
He realize hes a fool but yet does the same stupid things over and over
She got mad love for him
She forgives him for every litle thing he do but never forgets them
They're somewhere in the back of her mind
Resurfacing from time to time
He made her world dark but brighten it when everything for him is all right
She got mad love for him
She inspires me to write about this
She's a good woman
She's a shoulder in which I could cry on
She's undescribeable
She's phenomenal
And she got mad love for him

our hell

Our hell is here on earth for the things we put each other through is unbelievable and to us not consider awful. We are each others torturer for do all the things possible that we can think of to hurt each other. Imagine you were in a room burning eternally meaning never ending. Jean-Paul Sartre opens a new door of thinking to how he thinks hell is. Our hell is here on earth. Crying, Sick, Diseases, and many other things get people tired of how life is. The percentage of suicide rates go up each year. OUr hell is here but when we die another hell awaits you it have fire burning for eternity.

This is our hell

When we hear the word hell

I personally think of fire burning eternally

Earth is our hell don't you think

A. Phillip Randolph CHS

FOurth year there, I don't plan on spending extra time there for I despise that place
At first it was a place in which I could escape
It created another world for me as things get too crowded in my mind
Though never spoke aboout them
When I'm there they roam in the empty halls when no one crowded the halls
Don't try to inflict your views on other people
Every person that inhabit the earth got a mind of their own
Things never seem to change but now at A.P.R they do
seriously what has gotten in to people lately
Now A.P.R no longer create another world where ones mind could wonder
Can't roam the halls like before
The lockers are preowned
The staff brand new like underwear
Telling you this and that seriously I've been there long before you were here
who are you to tell me what to do???
Crowding the spaces where my thoughts used to roam freely but now are restricted
A.P.R a place to learn can't wait to get up out of it. June 25, 2009 Graduation day

Just can' t get the hang of things

Walking around with a big ole smile on my face
At the corner of my eye I see an old man with an undone lace
I walk pass him
Oh man I see a man sittin on the stoop lookin thin
I keep on my journey to nowhere
Just watching people as I walk there
A spanish lady selling fruits but i notice the sliced mangos
Right by the light post stand a two hoes
why must I call then that you ask??
They have hooker boots, mini skirts and half shirts basically they barely have clothes on
Pro vs. Con
who win?? I wonder
they learn from each other
Fate vs Free will
he asked me who will win???
I said neither because they both determine how the other willo turn out to be
Just can't get the hang of things
I sit on the bench at the park watching as life pass me by
I soon get a sense of things and get up and let somebody else watch as I go by
I soon will get the hang of things



College awaits me... Don't doubt me because I will roll over you like a speedbump

FRIENDS THEY'RE PRECIOUS

I GOT FRIENDS THat ARE IRREPLACEABLE
THEY'RE HARD TO FIND
NEVER WILL YOU FIND THEM LIKE MINE
I'M NOT GONN NAME THEM ALL JUST SOME
JOHNNYCAKE, POODAKOLA,MOFO,BROWNIN,TEE,JAii3( JAIME DATS YOU), JUSTINE AND MANY OTHERS
I TELL YOU NEVER WILL YOU FIND FRIENDS LIKE MINE
FRIENDS ARE PRECIOUS AND HARD TO FIND THEM LIKE MINE
THEY'RE LIKE A PRESENT WITH A BOW
TELL 'EM YOUR SECRETS, ABOUT THE CUTIE ON DA BUS, YOUR BOO, WHAT CLASS YOU FAIL
THERE ARE THINGS THEY AUTOMATICALLY KNOW
THEY KNOW WHEN YOU'RE DOWN BY THE LOOK ON YOUR FACE
THEY KNOW WHY YOU BE CHEESING AND STUFF
THEY NOTICE THINGS THAT WEIRD
THEIR WEIRD AND KEWL
AND FOR THE PEOPLE THAT ARE TOLD THAT THEY ARE CRAZY
IF YOU GOT FRIENDS LIKE MINE YOU DON'T NEED NO DARN PSCYCHIATRIST
YOUR FRIENDS ARE THE EARS THAT LISTEN TO YOUR EVERYTHING
ILY MY CRAZY FRIENDS

You never miss something until it's gone

I started writing something but then the laptop started fuckin up
what I wrote before this got erased
danm laptop
gets on my nerves
I wanna break it but I ain't paying for that shyt
Oh yeah the letter k dont work
I gott PRESS that darn thing a thousand times before I can get a k
The computer is in the shop so imma wait for it cuz this darn thing is annoying

God help me forgive

Been through so much
I've climb so many mountains to get where I am today
Yet you still doubt that I will make it any further
God help me forgive
Remembering things that were good
Trying to put all the bad in the back of my mind
They resurface back into my life
You ruined my life as far i'm concerned
I know hate is a strong word but did you think about that when you put me through hell???
I don't think so... cold i grew to be because of you
I do the best I can and don't you dare judge me
Lord knows... only he can judge me
God help me forgive
I don't wanna forgive her but i think its best I do
Help me forgive
you forgive me of my sins and I should be able to forgive too
But its hard to forgive someone who put you through hell
My hell was here on earth
There was no eternal fire but "she" was the maggots eating away my flesh
SHe killed me but she doesnt realize it
Lord help me forgive her
At times i wanna cry because I know what I've been through
But i hold on to the times when things were good
Nobody knows the trouble i've seen but GOd
I'll wont remember everything but I'll never forget
God help me

Why is it this way???

I got the pants on and so do you but you dont act your part
I'm not the man but yet i do your job better than you
wake up and smell the coffee
why is it this way???
what's your definiton of being a man???
Is being a man mean that you can work it in the bedroom??
Got a good size???
Make money???
Hey yo women make more money than some men
why is it this way???
I wanna see you be a real man
its ok to cry when you can't take it anymore
talk to you lover about how you feel
talk to her like she's one of your guy friends
dont hold back whats really eating you inside
whats your definition of a man???
baby you dont always gotta be strong because you think i'm weak
I'm not weak I just let you do things to make you feel like a man
to massage your manly ego
why is it this way???
Set your ego aside and just be a real man
I wonder why its this way????
Danm yo what happened to the few good men left???
where are they hiding???

Sweet thing

yo can you believe that he's sweeter than sugar

Make you just wanna smile till your face get numb

Sweet thing that's a nice sun set
nice colors =]

Carayzee fool

Call a brother carayzee but he just cant stop
Thinkin he hot like hot fudge
But hey you not hot
Just don't know when to stop
Can't you get the danm clues
back the fck up
YOU just CARAYZEE fool
DAng y you gotta be like dat for

Tryna be nice here but you makin hard cuz yuh get on mah danm nerves
shyt man

Sex on the roof

Raining
Body all soaking wet
Bump&grind on the roof
THunder roll
Our body temps are rising
Hot sex On the Roof

Is there a way out???

I wonder at times is there a way out of love?? What is life without love, hate, pain and all the other things that makes the world go round. There are times when the world seems as if it might topple over but its held by a tiny string. Is there a way where you can make yourself disappear to a place where you're content. Is there a way out getting hurt??? I'm saying that you have to hide yourself in a shell like a turtle. What's life without taking risks?? Is there a way where maybe just maybe you wouldn't shed a tear. Is there a way out of not loosing the one you truly love to spend never ending time with them. For when that someone smile butterflies rise out the corner of their mouth, their eyes sparkle like stars, their cheeks rise like little hills, the nose wrinkle like a rabbits' nose. I wonder is there a way out???? I scream at the sky because I wanna know is there a way out. All I see is the sun shining brighter than ever and still no answer.