God help me forgive

Been through so much
I've climb so many mountains to get where I am today
Yet you still doubt that I will make it any further
God help me forgive
Remembering things that were good
Trying to put all the bad in the back of my mind
They resurface back into my life
You ruined my life as far i'm concerned
I know hate is a strong word but did you think about that when you put me through hell???
I don't think so... cold i grew to be because of you
I do the best I can and don't you dare judge me
Lord knows... only he can judge me
God help me forgive
I don't wanna forgive her but i think its best I do
Help me forgive
you forgive me of my sins and I should be able to forgive too
But its hard to forgive someone who put you through hell
My hell was here on earth
There was no eternal fire but "she" was the maggots eating away my flesh
SHe killed me but she doesnt realize it
Lord help me forgive her
At times i wanna cry because I know what I've been through
But i hold on to the times when things were good
Nobody knows the trouble i've seen but GOd
I'll wont remember everything but I'll never forget
God help me