Patience is a virtue

Hello now... Goodbye today... greetings tomorrow
Sitting here anxious...wondering how imma make it to tomorrow. I have no idea what tomorrow hold and it scares me but patience is a virtue. I will wait patiently for God and what he gonna test my faith with. Have me feeling like a criminal always looking over my shoulder waiting for that one thing to go wrong. I don't wanna rush now to say goodbye to today to have to face tomorrow & not have my armor on... You see I'm a warrior I have to wear my protective gear.. ok tomorrow I'm ready to face you now.

T H R I L L S

This road Im heading down is dangerous but what's life without a thrill? I'm down for a thrill...

Seasons&Never changing pasts

Seasons come&go but you never seem to change for the better... Why am i still holding on? We are forever bind by never changing pasts. The stories we were told as children but you know what Fuck your thoughts wherever did mine go people keep asking cuz we seem to think alike I no longer hear my voice anymore.. I’ve faded into a faint blur and I like it… Seasons come&go but you NEVER seem to change for the better. &so the heart beat goes flat ^^_______________________.

Gift

It was given to me.. though at first I didn't know how to accept it.. how to carry it. This gift was certainly different... it wasn't just one thing but many to form one..The gift was the kink in her hair, the shine in her eyes when she smile, her friendship. Always there whenever I needed a friend... her Jamaican accent... her Puerto Rican accent. Her persistence... him always listening.. what more can I ask for? It was like this gift was crafted just for me... Within this gift we're like backbones to each other. I'm thankful for this gift..

Remembering

Its been 15 years since my mother past away. I miss her, I wish I got to know her more but unfortunately I didn't. The more years that passes by, the more I miss her. It was real disrepectful for that lil niqqa to say something about my mom and dad. Feel like 12.9.1995 is being played in front of me all over again. I don't cry for anything but as I write this and remember that saturday morning that she turned to face the wall, never to turn back tears flow from my eyes. I have no heart, dad was half mom was the other half but both were ripped from my chest. It's an empty space in my chest. Remembering them both today well I remember them everyday. Gone but NEVER forgotten.
R.I.P. Mom '95
R.I.P Dad '07

Forever&Maturity

As I lay in this path... the past flows like a stream under me slowly carrying me away. I want that stream to dry up and fade away but it always seems to find its way back to me and get a tight grip. Its not even in a good way but in annoying way. Seriously you're the PAST stay there, I dont want you in this moment well NOT EVER. The moment I said goodbye, I was gone, vanished as I finished the last syllable. Seems like a low-life always hacking people shit. I said to myself I wasnt gonna be mean but you wanna act like a child... According to researchers you're suppose to mature over time [Jean Piaget<- psychologist]. AS you age there comes a level of maturity but seems like you didnt reach maturity yet. As I think about it, I didnt even love you it was just strong liking. Led you to believe that this shit was gonna last forever. Your forever was forever forever but my forever was like a year well a lil less. How you gonna say one thing all lovey dovey [softassniqqa] and then when I walk away from the thing that is was "US" you gonna act like you hard. Here's a lil letter to you...

Dear lil person,
Grow up and treat your mother as the Phenomenal woman she is... Your relationships will never last if you think the woman gotta put up with your childish behavior cuz forreal the door will always be OPEN.. out the door they will vanish like smoke.. lucky you I gave you chances. I was the reality of your dreams but I will become your NIGHTMARE.
Sincerely& Truthfully
The girl that NEVER loved you
So its annoying how my status on aim be changing like a ghost was typing shit. Why check my shit if you say you don't care, seriously MOVE ON 'cause I sure did. INSECURITY dominate you, that was never an issue for me or maybe I simply didn't care. I don't even have a dick but you seem to be on it HARDBODY.
. I'm not even tryna be harsh but baby you asked for this. Pardon my back... Slowly walking away as you fade to NOTHING.