Why I ask but you just keep walking out the door why?

Why would you deprive me of something so valuable? He's so dear to my heart but yet you seem to pull him away more and more each day. Why? Is it that he dogged you and you hurting so bad that you just don't know what to do. I asked you why but you just kept walking out the door never to turn back to see the tear drop from my eye. My tear hit the floor with a thud and I was waiting for you to turn and come wipe the tears that were coming fast but you took a deep breath and just kept walking. I love him its true and I would always love him no matter what. As you walk away the scene in the background of my life change. It becomes gloomy just because he's not here to call my name, pull my eye lashes when I'm sleeping and he's not. Why do you deprive me of something so valuable and dear to my heart.

Maquillage or love?

Maquillage or love? He wanted to know did I put on a front to get by with him. I don't call it that I call it my maquillage. His love is there but to me it WAS there. I'm tying to put him in the past but he keep resurfacing into my life. Was it love I had for him or was it a maquillage I put on. He try to put me on top of his world but he felt like chump change weighing me down into a pit of lies in which he called his love for me and what I call my maquillage. I wouldn't call it love because to me it was maquillage and it would always be. I'm letting you go because i don't want to hurt you and break you into a million pieces. I can't say i love you and I miss you because it's not true but I'm going to say Farewell to a relationship not worth remembering. If only you see the truth in my eyes but I'm afraid to look you in your eyes for fear you might see what troubles me and try to break the wall I have around my heart. The "thing" we had was not love but maquillage. I'm sorry I had to that to you but I have to move and spent the change in my pocket to satisfy myself because when you're not there I'm there for me.