Legal and Bloated

Final 18 [est. 12.20.90] yeah i'm grown i dont care what people say i'm grown.
Right now feelin[BLOATED] about to burst
Before I became the woman I am I was grown but yet to you i was still a lil girl
I look at the world with an adults eye though just a few days ago I only saw it with a a young girls eyes.
Dreaming big but yet held back by the struggles that cause stress only to make things in life worst
[BLOATED] did I say I wanted to be a pirate? Oh yeah I wanna be a pirate
Legal girl woot woot




Some people I would not replace in my life because I dont know what I would do without them.
My backbones, my shoulders and ears.


Right now im LEGAL&BLOATED.


code red code red code red .



im running but yet mah feet is sinking in the ground like I'm running in quicksand.

Gettin Hair done @ 8:50 ish in da morning.

We in the college office and im gettin mah hair done for senior pics
OMG yo getting the flat iron aint workin like its suppose to
But oh well as long as the hair look good for the pi im all good
Hair done by the one and only Brownin'
Veronica hair looks nice. like wow omg

Stressin

Yes Im a senior and yeah Im in the college office everyday but college apps is mad work
omg... yo i got mad nuff work to do
danm colleges but anyways college awaits me
I have an interview tomorrow at MSMC campous omg
I dont know if i'll sleep right judt thinkin about it
imma be mad nervous though i noe imma do gud
I did gud on the first one and now i got a second one like yeah baby
aaooooow
Teddy take mah stress away. =]

ENTITLED

some say i should be a writer
it seems like i always have so much to say with so little time to say it all
some say write a book about your life
its gonna help somebody later thats goin through the shyt youve been through
Idk
yo
I feel like if i start my story I will never finish because ive been through so much
THE story will never end
no ending
leave you to guess what happen next
soo... yeah i had a crappy day today
it didnt start out like one but ended in one
arrrrgggg
I got gas FART [relief aaaahhhhh]
oh well idc aint nobody near me
ewwwwww it stinks
I eat too much junk
wonder where the food go?
Breast? Feet?[no they little]
idk but oh well
FOOD IS MY BESTFRIEND.
Theres this little boy thats my nephew
I love him so much
right now he lookin at the computer like he can understand what im writing
[lean over and kiss his forhead..... he smile his cutie pie smile] makes me feel better
ahhhhhhhh Hes a kewl kid IL him [Joshua] dats his name

Elaboration

My mind expands as I absorb the crap you keep feeding me
Why do I listen? Idk
It feels like my head is gonna explode just listening to your bullshit
I'm not running away because
How can I when I got you tied to my feet?
Feels like the Titanic
going down in a big ocean of ice
Feeling the numbness in my legs and it slowly creeps to my heart
Elaboration
I'M LOOSING MAH EFFING MIND.
AAAARRRG
I wish I was a pirate
but anyways I need to get back to da real world and flush of your IGNORANT words out my mind
They seem to be taking over me these days
ELABORATION
NOT GONNA LOOSE MAH EFFING MIND
I cant get gray hairs while your beauty lingers behind you
For I am as beautiful as MOrning Glories, the moon, the stars
When I look in the mirror I AM THE DEFINITION OF BEAUTY
IM GOOD NOW
WHeeewwww
it does feel gud when i write
=]

arrrrrrrrrrggg

aaaaaarrrrrgggg I'm loosing my mind. =[

Senioritis sinkin in

I have to do some creative writing for my english class. I have an idea of where to start but havent been able to actually sit down for real and start writing. Senioritis sinking in on me. Imma snap out of it though cuz im counting days till June 25 yo.. woooohooooo. anyways today was a bad day i had mad tests and shyt arrrrrggg. I had a music,spanish,P.I.G,math and psychology midterm. The last two i mostly def didnt get good grades on them. Yo i miss Teddy. Its like we can never spend enough time together, the time just fly out the window yo. Im so addicted to him hes mah personal dose of Heroin. HEs a good addiction though.=]. I got so many things going through my mind i cant type fast enough to let all of them out. arrrggg. imma be out yo i gotta go clean...