feeling alone amongst all these people. :( 

why is that?

I love love

I love love.
I can't seem to grasp it fully, ever
can I hold you tight tonight and loosen the grip tomorrow night?
I love love.
I can't seem to willingly just let myself go and embrace it
can it be that my childhood scar'd me that bad, I can't embrace love for all it grandeur?
I love love.
love is not pain ... the bible told me so
not that I read the bible recently
Scared of love ... but I love love
can you teach me to embrace love?
habibti, am I too reserved with myself?
Is there such a thing as being too reserved?
Isn't it being mysterious enough to keep you interested as time wrap us in itself?
can I just be mysterious so there's always something new to learn about me ?
I love love.
can you just hold me sometimes habibti?
do you think about me as much as I think about you habibti?
I love love, but will you teach me to embrace love and to never let it go?

blame game

doubts arise 

love whither; hearts broken

I vowed to never be the victim

I vowed to be the heartbreaker

both feet in but one  slightly out 

I can’t just let it all go 

lose myself 

become one with you

fuck love I’m tired of trying

my heart big but it beat quiet

you tell me you love me 

you told her  you don’t love me

playing on two teams

but what happens when the two teams play each other

where do you stand?

ask questions, there are no answers

fuck love I’m tired of trying

my heart big but it beat quiet 

close my eyes and whisper those two lines to myself

you do your dirt, I do my dirt

it’s a dirty game being played

but let’s play the blame game

I love you

people put up fronts on the internet but in reality a lot of shit eat you inside. Regardless of what happened you just got to keep it moving. Life is too short to be letting others stress you.

stuck

trying to see past my nose 

but I can't see past those

those who cover my eyes

trying to shelter me with lies

It's not right 

that you don't want me to see the light

you say one thing to me 

another to she

torn between decisions and reasons

but this isn't for seasons

only

it's not for when you get lonely

I'm stuck

stuck between decisions and reasons ... that's just my luck

time

I've stayed the longest
Knife cut the deepest
I can't feel it anymore
The darkness engulf me
All thought time heal all wounds
Time just make you suppress the bad memories until something trigger it
Time doesn't heal wounds !

The need to get rich quick is in your system. Illegal smoke exits your lungs and make shapes in the air. Your mind is so clouded but yet behind the clouds you plot on how you're going to do this. How you're gonna get away from here.. you huddle with your friends.. puff puff pass.. friendly thing to get your mind off the money you don't have right now but the bad chick you got by your side. In the back of your mind you're thinking damn is she gonna stay or find another with fat pocket? Eyes are barely open, seeing the world through a slit. You look around and the faces become blurred. Feels like you're going crazy, after all maybe you fit into that small categorized box society placed you in.