LISTEN!

Its like everytime I talk to you, you NEVER listen. My efforts are in vain. My words always fall on deaf ears... thats why after a while I decide to be silent. You always hear me though but why won't you listen to my cry to be heard? I've stood on firm ground until I couldn't hold up all my words that bounced of you anymore. ugh JUST LISTEN!!!!

Although I spill my heart with these words I'm still not understood.
I've lost hope in you ever being sane again. I think you have gone deaf to your own voice.. I'm not even gonna continue this plea to be heard anymore.

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INSANE!

Behind these walls everything seem to fall apart but outside these four walls no longer shelter you, you hold up together this image you have presented to the world. The real you is hiden behind that grin you put on your face everytime you step outside... Oh where art thou? where did you go? its like you let go of yourself so much you don't know where to look to find yourself anymore. Its your fault you can't find yourself.. you watch your sane self walk away & all the screams didn't help at all... Sane you kept walking away without even turning back to glance at you as you lose your mind. You have gone INSANE with no one to help you turn that around. Sane you is never coming back, I hope you come to realize that... All you do is watch as yourself sink deeper into that hole that you can't climb out of. This is INSANE!! Get up already and get yourself together.

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Where art thou?

My inspiration left me. what am I to do now? I can't seem to complete my pieces. All the words inside me are getting tangled within themselves. INSPIRATION WHERE ART THOU? I cry

F A D E D

As your eyes scan my body from head to toe...I shy away. The fire in my eye faded though you thought it would burn forever. I no longer want your touch... I was so accustomed to how you held me close to heart but you made me felt CHOKED. That's why I had to fly.. release myself from your tight grip.. I had the wind beneath my wings. Soon as I left.. I
F A D E D. Now when I look in the mirror I see the scars you left on my wings but I survived now I'm stronger.

Losing Control

Losing my mind to the questions unanswered. Where do I began? Who do I go to? &somehow I can't find myself to get up out this chair in this crouch position. I feel as though I'm being picked up by my collar...being controlled like a puppet. I'm slowly losing control of this image but I don't seem to know what the image stand for anymore...what does it show?.. I was the bright blur in a black&white picture but I've become the dull one in a colorful picture.. Where have I faded to?... I still don't recognize where I am. Now that I know I've lost control I don't know how to get myself back. I never fell off the edge though you pushed me I just vanished like the smoke at the end of that blunt. -____-

F I N A L L Y !

Found it in my chest to let go of the things you've done & said & the pain you caused. You killed me inside but yet I still live though you thought otherwise. Its a sickness how you corrupt our minds. The things I've done I won't apologize for, because after all everything happens for a reason. I've put to rest all the pain you caused cuz I was getting tired of carrying the dead weight that was on my shoulder. They say time heal all wounds... I don't think so it just makes things easier. I won't forget things but I will let go... finally finding the strength to let it go... It took me a LONG time but I did it. F I N A L L Y ! Now the dead weight is taken off my shoulder.

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Standing on the edge, below are those that have fallen off. I'm not going anywhere though, Imma stay here as long as my strength allows me to stay. I wont let go just because you tell me to. Push me I'm not falling, I have my feet planted in the ground. Its a new year & I will stand strong.