I'm my MAXIMUM never your minimum

Got this far but yet you don't appreciate my effort
I put all of my blood out there but yet you never see it flow
it's like you don't even think that we have the same blood running through our vain
You never see eye to eye with me
Its like your mind is stuck on yesterday...
Living still when things used to be so easy
Being carefree... having to worry about anything
Must you do that to yourself...
Woman grow up and be phenomenal
Though you can never be phenomenal to me but to somebody else you can make a difference
Its hard to forgive you
But I'm on a journey to that path though I stray from it time
the hurt and pain always resurface when I try to forget what you did
And move on with what I have now...
Now you got me stuck on yesterday
But today I evolved...
I'm better than yesterday
I know for so long that I'm a maximum
But now I shout it for the whole world to hear
I'M MY MAXIMUM AND NEVER YOUR MINIMUM

In a crowd but all alone

Walking in the midst of warm body, vivid souls
Yet everything around me is moving at a speed I cant describe
I'm in a crowd but yet all alone
Somewhere my eyes set on you and as I walk down this path
On a journey to forgive those who have done me wrong, love those who love me, help those who need help...
Trying to be sociologically mindful here...
All I feel is nothing but warmth with no meaning..
Its like layin on the bed reaching for someone who is no there
Reality sets in and I grab the pillow and whisper your name
I look out the window and whisper sweet things so the wind can carry them to you
I used to feel nothing but now I feel the conture of your body next time
I am not in this journey alone
Its us versus the world
we may lose a couple battles but we will win this war

Am I?

These past 5 weeks, I've grown into someone better than the one I left back home
Back home I left a girl just living each day as if it were her last
It was as if nothing mattered but those that cared
Besides that others feelings didn't matter
I was the girl with a hard shell around her heart
Ready to fight away anybody that tried to take down that shell
Am I your maximum or your minimum?
Why am I asking? When your opinion on that doesn't matter
I strive for the best because of those before me that never got that chance to get where I am today
i have to make a difference in others lives because many people made my journey a lil easier
I was the girl at times that became the shoulders on which you cried but what about me?
Did you ever wonder how I made it through the day or night?
Did my emotions really matter to you or the fact that you wanted to satisfy my desire?
was it because you were absent in my early years?
I would sit and wonder why must you act this way
I look through books but yet find no scientific term to why you do what you do?
Am I all the being that i can be to impact your life and yet still be the girl with the hardshell around her heart
Forever there are those embedded there
R.I.P Mom '95 and Dad '07. Gone but never forgotten

7 Holding Controversial 13

Unlucky #13 have just been named the best number
There are 13 of us who are going to change people's mind about unlucky 13
I one of the 13 sit upon 7 sturdy poles
sturdy poles with experience ,who are wise
Controversial 13 Known as an unlucky number
The day when bad things occur
Don't you think change is here
Obama made change
There's always room to better yourself
13 such an unlucky number
I am part of a changing era
The look in the eyes from those who look down on controversy 13
show that we don't deserve this opportunity
we will make a change
As time fly by
we are class of 2013

Am I asking for much??

I get my papers straight and everything else follows
I smile to show my content of my accomplishment
Yet you try to drag me down and tell me I can't do this&that
I am not a child of whom you have to change from time to time
You don't have to put on a smile to pretend that you want me to succeed
'Cuz in heart you know that you want me to stay in the same spot as you
I'm not asking for much, I'm just asking to loosen up a little bit
& release me from this tight grip you have on me
My brotha I am not asking for much
Why won't you consider my request?
Is it that narrow mind of yours that tell you don't let go?
My brotha I will escape your tight grip
I listen to what you have to say now why won't you listen to me?
I'm not asking for much...

And then there's today

Yesterday was just another day in my life nothing was in my interest except food, sleep and T.L.A.U pero I didn't have a phone available.
Today is like yesterday except I just don't want to be bothered by people and some people are slow and don't understand that
I just want to get away
but then there's today when the whole world is upside down
Just hope tomorrow is better than yesterday&today

Just because...

Just because I stumbled doesn't mean I fell down though I feel like I'm plunging down at full speed. The mistakes made since I recognized right from wrong. My eyes were open taking the innocent out of me and leaving me scarred never to heal from life's rocky journey. Losing the ones we truly care about just because it was their time or somebody cut it short. Even if I held as tight as possible cutting blood circulation on your body, they still slipped from my grip. Wish they were here to see me now and be like any other but just because they are gone but never will they ever be forgotten. The appreciation I have for them though they are gone and those who have them just don't care just because they are there. R.I.P mom '95 & R.I.P dad '07. Forever engraved in my memory.